Today is hard. Not because bad things have happened, but because emotionally, things are hard. I feel heavy. My chest is tight. I want to cry, but I can’t. I want to be productive, but it’s too difficult. It took many tries to empty the dishwasher today. After showering and getting dressed, I had to … More Today is a hard day.
As I was taking my medication tonight I thought, “It’s sad that I need a pill to be happy.” And then I stopped myself because that thought is EXACTLY why the stigma around mental health exists. We, as a society in general, treat invisible illnesses as if it’s the fault of the person battling them. … More Isn’t it sad…
There’s an online blogger that I really admire named Ali Edwards. I love her outlook on life, love, and the simple things. She also scrapbooks, which makes her even cooler, imo! Every January she chooses a word to focus on- whether it’s create, light, athlete, etc. It becomes a mantra for her year. And every … More One Little Word.
My husband has never been depressed. He tries to understand what I’m going through, but the truth is, he doesn’t. He can’t possibly understand something that he’s never experienced. To him, I just need to try a little harder. I just need to make the effort to do my hair, because those small victories count … More Braving the Storm. Alone.
Depression lies. And right now it’s telling me I’m not cut out for this mom gig. That I can’t do it. That I should just pack my bags and run for the hills, because what the fuck am I doing anyway? I’m probably just screwing them up even though I’m trying so hard to be … More Here we go again.
Months ago, I was pretty discouraged. I was so depressed that I was devastated that I was going to have to “claw” my way back to health. I didn’t really have the energy to fight. I wasn’t giving up, I just was exhausted from surviving. But the Abilify has changed all that. I clawed my … More Coming Out of the Mud
I’m doing well. Really well. Abilify has changed my life. I emptied the dishwasher recently without giving myself a pep talk first. I’m wearing make-up again- and not as a part of my façade. I actually wanted to put it on. I’m exercising. Things are still difficult during the day at times, but I’m really … More Is this what it’s like to not have such severe depression?