Ali Edwards chooses a word each year to focus on. I know I’ve mentioned this previously, but I think it’s a great exercise to do every year. I’ve been doing it since roughly 2007. My word for 2016 came late. It was already well in to 2016 before I finally chose a word, or rather, … More One Little Word 2017
I’m bored. Bored with a capital B. But I don’t want to do anything, either. My counselor suggested that it’s not real boredom- it’s a symptom of the depression. Most people when they are bored want to do something to end the boredom- but me? I only want to lay on the couch and check … More The Boredom
Last week I saw my family doctor. He told me during that visit that I appeared to be doing better, even though I told him I’m still struggling. He told me “to watch some TED talks” so I don’t feel so alone (I know I’m not alone), that perhaps I need to “stop comparing [my] … More Not Feeling It
When you’re depressed, everything is hard. Chores, showering, etc. For me, I can shower and get dressed, but then I struggle with doing my hair, make up, and brushing my teeth. I might have to (and usually do) take a break in between getting dressed and finishing my morning routine. Even with a break, I … More Timing the Day
I saw my psychiatrist a couple of days ago. My depression hasn’t changed since the last appointment when we upped my Zoloft. We didn’t modify my medications any more this time, but I was assigned homework. For the next 6 weeks I need to keep track of the things that “fill my bucket” and the … More What Fills Your Bucket and What Empties It?
I’ve been working on this post for over a month. Sometimes I feel like I can’t do this parenting gig. I’m so worn. So frazzled. So frustrated. My depression tells me that I’m not cut out to be a parent. That my kids are suffering because I’m depressed. That I’m damaging them because I have … More Parenting Through Depression.
Today is hard. Not because bad things have happened, but because emotionally, things are hard. I feel heavy. My chest is tight. I want to cry, but I can’t. I want to be productive, but it’s too difficult. It took many tries to empty the dishwasher today. After showering and getting dressed, I had to … More Today is a hard day.